Ok not gonna get all verbose, lots i could say, none of its important except this:
Its national suicide awareness or prevention day or whatever….SUICIDE FUCKING SUCKS. Dont do it. Call a hotline. Call me. Call a fucking phone sex operater!! Talk to someone! If you cant talk TYPE, if you cant type, WRITE …. Find help, please GODS, its THERE to be found i PROMISE, just look harder, one more time, before you chose what you cant take back. Youre worth it, life is worth it, there are options, i PROMISE.